Things You Can't Live Without

After my last post here in my blog, i sought the aid of a reflexologist to help me with my problem. Acupressure proved to be very effective and i was surprised to find myself falling asleep before i knew it. It was a wonderful experience and I was able to sleep for 3 straight days afterwards.

The momentum was broken on the fourth night, when my neighbors became too rowdy and were making a lot of noise. I was very annoyed because they kept me awake all night. The night after that it happened all over again. My sleep problem came back and i was once again in a very miserable state.

Currently, i'm not really sure if I'm sleeping or not at all. I tend to just close my eyes every night and wait for morning comes. Now, like i said...I'm not really sure if i am able to sleep at all or not because i tend to know my surroundings as if i was just there with my eyes closed.

Now, I don't feel refreshed at all in the mornings, but i don't feel fatigued either. It was like, I am tricking my body that i am actually asleep (even if i were not). That way my body doesn't react too badly because sometimes, when i think too much about my health...it triggers something and that is what makes the ordeal a lot heavier.

Its like a psychological disease and with that kind of problem, you need a psychological cure to fight it. Well anyways, for me this is just a temporary reprieve and i do hope that i can still return my state to the time after my acupressure session. If this week doesn't yield results, then i guess its time to call him once again.

Seriously, there are things in life that you just can't live without like sleep =)

Till next time...

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Operation Reset Begins!

My severe insomniac is still going on and mind you, i am pretty exhausted after testing out everything that i can do to make me fall asleep. Right now, i'm happy if i can get 2-3 hours of rest (which happens at an interval of 4 straight days without sleep).

Health problems aside, i am thankful for the help that i am getting at the moment and i found something that might just "break the ice" so to speak. With that in mind and with that help, i am going to have this 1 week test if i can reset or create a new sleep pattern that will work out for me.

I know that i am not the only one who is experiencing this problem and i know for a fact that their could be millions (and even billions) of people who have the same problems that i do. Cure for it doesn't work on everybody...But, there are things that you can do in order to make a difference (and i hope that difference will work on me this week).

Truth be told, i am really scared to go to bed every night because i know that i won't be getting any sleep, no matter how hard i try. My body aches, my heart aches, my mind aches. It seems that every muscle and nerve in your body has reached their limit and you know deep inside that the longer this problem persist, then the more troubled and more dangerous it would be for you. Of course, thanks to the advice that i took i was enlightened.

"Nobody dies from not getting any sleep and Nobody can stay awake forever."

I found this one very true, because one way or the other you will pass out due to exhaustion. This is what i experienced when i wasn't able to get a minute of sleep for 6 straight days. The fatigue probably caught up with me and was rewarded with a few measly hours of sleep.

I read about this article while i was looking for a remedy on the internet about my problem. This so called "Sleep debt" which piles up everyday (if the person doesn't get any sleep). It said that this "debt" will grow and grow and take its toll on you, but you don't have to worry about it. You can pay it back, when you finally get that sleep that you are "dying for" to have.

Life is not a matter of chance, but a matter of choice.
I believe in both though. Your chances in life gives you the ability to choose and for that, the same can be applied vice-versa.

On a side note, i think this is one of those signs that i always get from HIM. Every lesson that i get from life comes from experiences and problems that had been laid out to me by HIM and i know that if i will be able to get through with this one, then that will help me become a better person.

I often have a feeling that when HE does these things to me, he wants me to "Stop, Look and Think". What am i missing? What are the things that i forgot to do? What are the promises that i broke? The promises that i kept? The rules that i had applied for myself? My visions? My Missions? What is it really that i want to do? How will i be able to achieve it?

This wake up calls that i regularly get from him is something that i hate and appreciate at the same time. Hate it at first because it is troublesome and appreciate it at the end because of the things and lessons that i learned from the experience.

You might have known me for a person who always believe in the phrase "A blessing in Disguise". I really believe in that phrase because i am the living proof of those words. ^___^ i'm going to smile even if its painful because i know, that if i will be able to pass this test...then the reward will be all worth it.




I bid you guys a wonderful week and hope that you will be able to accomplish the things that you need to do.

Till next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!!

In Times of Great Need

I didn't know what happened, but it came and made a mess of my schedule and my life. Since August 3 I haven't had the luxury to sleep. Yes, it suddenly happened and left me with questions like "What, Why and When?", which i have no idea how to answer.

There were times when its hard to fall asleep, but even then i can still manage an hour or two of snooze to make me feel better. But now, i had none. The first 6 days was torture, pure hell if you would describe it. Not a minute of sleep, i just lie in my bed and wished that sleep will have mercy on me and give me the rest that i deserve.

Everyday without sleep left me gasping for breath. My head aches, my breathing is heavy, my body aches and most of all, the frustration was piling up. The clinic which i visited during those 6 days weren't able to help me. As a last resort, i begged the doctor to give me a shot of Diphenhydramine.

It was a scary experience. I thought that it will work instantly, but it started slow and made my senses numb. It was really scary...it makes you think that you would not wake up again if you manage to lose your consciousness. I managed to fight it off because my heartbeat suddenly picked up its pace. Then the fatigue finally caught up to me and i fell asleep at around 3am up to at least 7 in the morning.

After i woke up, i feel refreshed and thought that everything will return back to normal. I was gravely mistaken and my exodus continued.

On the 9th night...i reached my limit and was taken immediately to the hospital. On the way there, i was literally gasping for breath and trying my best to stay conscious. It made me think that "This is finally it" the day on which i might forever leave this world behind.

My breathing slowly returned to normal as i was attended by the nurses at the hospital. I was given a prescription and some pain relievers and sent home after i recovered.

After all that drama, i managed to get at least 5-6 hours of sleep thanks to the medicine that my doctor gave me. The Antihistamine drug that was prescribed to me was quite something. After that ordeal until now, i haven't got a wink of sleep once again.

Seriously, I envy those people who doesn't have a problem in getting to sleep whenever they want to. I was just like them, a few weeks ago. I felt like the sleep button on my head has been turned off. Its like a program that has been written and cannot be over-ruled.

Now, I feel very fatigued and very very dizzy. Still, even if i lay down on the bed, relax myself and do the things that are supposed to make me sleep...it's all useless.

How i wish that i can turn back time and go back to those days, when sleep was never an issue. I'm not sure how long i will be able to hold on, but until then i will do everything to put this problem behind me.

I would really like to write this one on my resume of life and talk to those who suffered the same problems that i did. I would tell them the things that i did to overcome that obstacle and make them feel a little better. But, i can't do that right now. I wish that someone will tell me what to do, because I'm really desperate at the moment.

I hope you guys won't get this very problematic problem. Not getting any sleep...sucks and i do not recommend these sensations that I'm feeling at the moment.

SLeep well everyone and till then...


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Me and The Queen's Classroom

Well, i finished watching my first J-Drama and it was an experience. First off, the acting wasn't that good in the earlier episodes. However, once you get used to it and got sucked up in the story, then you might even surprise yourself.

My main reason for watching this drama is because a friend recommended it to me. It was also a good opportunity to understand more about the language. I just recently realized that watching drama's and anime's are two different things. I can immediately tell that i will be able to learn something, if i keep on watching a few more of these Japanese drama series.

Akutsu Maya is a devilish teacher who teached the class of Grade 6 class 3. She was a very mean teacher and all of the students were afraid of her. However, there was a student who seems to be an idiot and refuses to acknowledge her ways of teaching.

This girl's name was Kanda Kazumi. Akutsu sensei, made her life miserable. She made her friends betray her, she made her feel helpless and most of all, she made her feel alone. At first sight, you will think that Akutsu Maya is doing this for her own self satisfaction.

I remembered the time when i was still studying in highschool (yes highschool, not elementary), there was a strict teacher whom i really like. He was our science teacher and he can really be harsh at times, especially when carrying out disciplinary measures towards his students.




Since then, i found a soft spot for strict teachers and if possible, i wanted to have more of them when i entered college. But alas....college wasn't anything like that. The teachers their were so "effing nice". Still, it was a good experience for me and i love them anyways.

As the story progressed, the class got united again, then was broken apart again. They tried their best to get rid of her, but she manages to elude all of their plans, each and every time.

In the end, Katsumi realized that she is actually a good teacher and even though Akutsu Sensei denies it. Kazumi and her classmates finally understood, that their "Devil Teacher" was doing it for them.

Kill Joys are free to watch this Japanese Drama Series, but let me tell you in advance...You might find the acting on the first few episodes...not to your liking. But! This show is incredibly, heart warming and you might even learn a lesson or two...under Akutsu Sensei's Teaching.

It's raining a lot lately and their are times when i feel like, i should just lie down and sleep. I really love this season, more rainy days to come!!

Bah~ of course, not everyone likes it. :3 to those that are having problems with this weather that we are having as of late....i pity you >:P


Well, till next time guys...

Keep the Flames Burning!!

Laughter is not always the best Medicine

Ok, I'll sum up what i had been doing for the past 2 weeks. First off, I'm renewing my Strategy for my Japanese lessons because i think that it's about time to take it to the next level. I wanted to prove to myself that i can do it by myself (Foolish bravado) and i would like to finish what i started. Since i can't teach myself anything new, i decided to watch J-Drama Films instead and learn from it (by hook or by crook).

My hands are still feeling stingy at times and that can only mean that i have to press on the accelerate pedal before its too late. The latest thing that i had done so far is practicing some basic video/movie editing using Windows Movie maker. Actually, this is the first time that i had used something like that and I'm looking for newer and better softwares that i can use for video and movie editing. Still, the parodies that i had created, made my heart and lungs ache from too much laughing.

There was a time that i laughed so hard that i was almost out of breath. Last night i was still laughing while i was in my bed and thanks to that, i wasn't able to sleep and just waited for morning to come. My stomach was hurting from probably inhaling too much air (and karma from making fun of my friends in the parodies that i made for them).

It was a first for me, i had many sleepless nights before but hurting because of too much laughter was a first for me. Making funny scripts for movies are really fun and i believe that it will be a good reference for the future.

I have set a date for myself and i want to wrap everything up before the month of August comes to an end. Time is not on my side and I am probably just one of the thousands, who understands how fast time can pass you by.

Doing something worth doing and appreciating everything that you can do is something that person is entitled to. I sincerely hope and pray that the fruition of my efforts will come to pass before this year is over.

I hope you guys had a great weekend and let us pray for better days to come.

P.S If i find some good J-Drama titles, i might post them here as well.


Till then...

Keep the Flames Burning!

Starting it slow

The new anime series that had made their appearances this month has caught my attention. Of course, we all have our own opinions on what type of anime suits us best and for me, i found some of them very interesting and some of them lacking in some points.

Old faces like Baka to Test to Shoukanjuu and Natsume are very promising and made me smile as i watch the first episodes.

The series that i had anticipated like Croisee, Kamisama Dolls and Usagi Drop started great and I am very interested on how things will turn out on the next episode. The other anime that caught my attention was Kami-sama no Memo-chou (God's Notebook?) was quite "NEET" if i say so myself. They are all quite interesting and i do hope that their series will continue to be interesting as the days go by.

No anime reviews for this week, but I will post something during the weekends.

Till then...have a great week and...

Keep the Flames Burning!

Endings and New Beginnings

As the seasons for the anime's that i have watched over the past few months are slowly and surely taking their well deserved "curtain calls", i can't help but admit that i am actually excited to know that some of the manga's, games, series that i am familiar with is all lined up this July.

Now you may already know about this, but I do find the ending for "C the Money of Soul and Possibility Control and Gosick" to be quite nice and very appropriate for the series. As one who waits every week for every single upload of the videos, I'm glad that it had a great ending and that is what made it, all worth my while to watch.

I wish that the new series that I am looking forward to will be just as good or "hopefully" be even better than them. Now i have mixed feelings about these anime titles that I am going to share with you and i think that some of you are familiar with them as well.

First on our List is Natsume Yuujin - Chou San




I already made a review of this series before and I sincerely hope that this one would be great. To those that doesn't know the story of Natsume and Mr. Cat Pig, I'll give you a brief summary about it. Natsume can see spirits (Youkai's) and the likes and he has learned to accept them. He was entrusted with the book of friends (A book who has the list of names of spirits) and this book binds those spirits to him. Some of them are bad, some of them are good and some of them are "somewhere in between the two". Now mind you, this series is quite simple and it has that "laid back" atmosphere that most of you feel, whenever you watch simple slice of life shows. Well, to know more about his story, you'll just have to watch the anime and see whether you find it to your liking (or not).

Next is the loveable antics of Ikoku Meiro no Croisee




Well, the first time i saw this muffin is around a few months ago (I think). It is a story about a Yune a young japanese girl in a foreign country and she's with a French guy named Oscar. Illustrated with the same guy that handled Gosick (Yeah, he likes it when East meets West) i sure love to see this animated. I'm sure that im going to like it (even if i haven't watched it yet), it just gives off that "feeling" that you can't definitely miss this one out.

Ok...Now *ahem* it's time for the Idols to finally take center stage and shine (once again).



Of course, some of you may have watched "Xenoglassia" in the past, and yes this is where "IdolMaster" started. No....the first series was not about girls dancing, but mechanical robots punching meteorites that are headed to earth. Although an Ova was released in the past, i wonder if the anime series for "Idolmaster" will just be as good as the reputation that they get in the game. I have a feeling that i'll be hearing the song "Colorful Days" in the show. >__> I wonder if they are going to show "Kiramekirari" with Yayaoi on it xD!! Well anyways....we'll just have to see if they are as good as it gets.

Now....this series is quite new to me and i'll admit that i had only been reading it for the past month (or two). Usagi Drop features a different story from the "usual" anime's that you had watched so far and i wonder if this will be good or not.



Well, this is a story about a guy who took care of his grandfather's daughter. Did that phrase confuse you? Well imagine this, you have a 10 year old with you and she's supposed to be your Aunt and you are 30 years old. Ok do you get the picture? now, let's start rolling. Usagi drop features a unique relationship between Daikichi and his supposed to be aunt Rin. HE took care of her and raised her up and they had their fair share of hardships along the way. Even though everyone in their family finds her an "annoyance" because of the way her identity...no make that existence, has been unknown to them when Daikichi's grandfather was still alive. Oh yeah, according to the story Daikichi looks just like his Grandpa when he was younger err...older...err... >_< well they just look alike! That is also probably the main reason why Rin was somehow attached to him "in her own way". Well i don't really want to give any spoilers, but i'm curious on how the anime series will turn out.

Well that is it for this week and i hope that we would have better and brighter days ahead.

Till next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!