My severe insomniac is still going on and mind you, i am pretty exhausted after testing out everything that i can do to make me fall asleep. Right now, i'm happy if i can get 2-3 hours of rest (which happens at an interval of 4 straight days without sleep).
Health problems aside, i am thankful for the help that i am getting at the moment and i found something that might just "break the ice" so to speak. With that in mind and with that help, i am going to have this 1 week test if i can reset or create a new sleep pattern that will work out for me.
I know that i am not the only one who is experiencing this problem and i know for a fact that their could be millions (and even billions) of people who have the same problems that i do. Cure for it doesn't work on everybody...But, there are things that you can do in order to make a difference (and i hope that difference will work on me this week).
Truth be told, i am really scared to go to bed every night because i know that i won't be getting any sleep, no matter how hard i try. My body aches, my heart aches, my mind aches. It seems that every muscle and nerve in your body has reached their limit and you know deep inside that the longer this problem persist, then the more troubled and more dangerous it would be for you. Of course, thanks to the advice that i took i was enlightened.
"Nobody dies from not getting any sleep and Nobody can stay awake forever."
I found this one very true, because one way or the other you will pass out due to exhaustion. This is what i experienced when i wasn't able to get a minute of sleep for 6 straight days. The fatigue probably caught up with me and was rewarded with a few measly hours of sleep.
I read about this article while i was looking for a remedy on the internet about my problem. This so called "Sleep debt" which piles up everyday (if the person doesn't get any sleep). It said that this "debt" will grow and grow and take its toll on you, but you don't have to worry about it. You can pay it back, when you finally get that sleep that you are "dying for" to have.
Life is not a matter of chance, but a matter of choice.
I believe in both though. Your chances in life gives you the ability to choose and for that, the same can be applied vice-versa.
On a side note, i think this is one of those signs that i always get from HIM. Every lesson that i get from life comes from experiences and problems that had been laid out to me by HIM and i know that if i will be able to get through with this one, then that will help me become a better person.
I often have a feeling that when HE does these things to me, he wants me to "Stop, Look and Think". What am i missing? What are the things that i forgot to do? What are the promises that i broke? The promises that i kept? The rules that i had applied for myself? My visions? My Missions? What is it really that i want to do? How will i be able to achieve it?
This wake up calls that i regularly get from him is something that i hate and appreciate at the same time. Hate it at first because it is troublesome and appreciate it at the end because of the things and lessons that i learned from the experience.
You might have known me for a person who always believe in the phrase "A blessing in Disguise". I really believe in that phrase because i am the living proof of those words. ^___^ i'm going to smile even if its painful because i know, that if i will be able to pass this test...then the reward will be all worth it.
I bid you guys a wonderful week and hope that you will be able to accomplish the things that you need to do.
Till next time...
Keep the Flames Burning!!
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