One of those Blessed Nights

This past week, aside from my sleep wake cycle getting broken every now and then, everything was fine. It's really hard to get things done, when you are always feeling tired and yet you can't seem to catch that very much needed sleep.

Now i am trying to read untranslated Manga's and it was like going back to step 1.
Yeah, i was like A--PP--L-E, B-AN-ANA. It was such a funny feeling, this baby talk of mine was something that i never expected to happen. Sure, i don't have any problems when reading short sentences but things start to change, when you finally do something you want to do.

Well anyways, i just can't help but go back to the basics once again and i think that it is something worth doing. Now aside from learning a few words here and there, i think reading something with pictures will help me connect the dots (or so to speak).

Very much like a picture book, manga's allow the reader to grasp the story just by looking at the pictures. I always (ALWAYS) only read translated manga's and reading RAW ones is quite a challenge. Still, with my handy dandy japanese dictionary beside me and my will to learn the language, I'm sure I'll manage one way or the other.

Well, no Manga/Anime reviews for this week but I'll post a comment about some Ongoing anime's as of late.

Till Then...

Keep the Flames Burning!!

Going back to Zero in the middle of the Night

There were times when i have difficulty in breathing, but this happens for only a brief period of time. It was my first time to experience shortness of breath for 2 consecutive days (every sec of every minute). My breathing has been quite heavy during those two days and it gave me enough reason once again to see the doctor.

After running some tests, he asked me to take the ECG test(electrocardiogram). He said that my lungs and heart seems normal and he added that i might have over-exerted myself in doing something. Well, it did happen 2 hours after i did the laundry last week and i was gasping for air before i knew it.

He said that all i need to get is some rest (which is, as you know almost an impossibility in my condition). I just sucked it up and went home feeling a little better knowing that it wasn't due to my heart nor lungs. Yeah, i know that it is just connected to my sleep/wake problem.

Well anyways, since the problem has been diagnosed and i am back to ZERO, when it comes to having a good nights rest.

Well, my rant ends here and i will now talk about the Ongoing anime series which is Fate Zero.

As you may already be aware of, Fate Zero is the PREQUEL of Fate Stay Night. A battle between Masters and their Servants for the Holy Grail (which can grant you any wish you desire).

Saber also known as Arturia (King Arthur) is the legendary King of Knights and is considered as the strongest servant in the story. Of course we have 3 kings on Fate Zero and that is Gilgamesh (King of Kings) and Alexander (King of Conquerors). Now, i do have my favorite servants in the story and that is the Berserker Class and the Rider Class (which is Alexander).

The Berserker Class is so freaking awesome! Oh btw, this part was played by Hercules on Fate Stay Night and right now, i don't have any idea about the identity of the Berserker Class in Fate Zero. The Rider Class in Fate Stay Night wasn't anything special, actually you can say that she wasn't given any justice in the story.

However, that all changed in Fate Zero on which the Rider class plays a very funny and important role. Whenever i see this muscle guy and his antics (especially the last episode, on which he bought something online) i really laughed at that notion.

Anyways, the story is progressing quite smoothly and I am waiting in anticipation for the next episode. For me, Fate Zero is one of the best addition in the anime's that is currently aired this season.




Well, i like fantasy stories and perhaps when i am able to accomplish the things that i need to do. Who knows, i might be watching my own story being animated in 2-4 years from now xD!

Well anyways, i can dream can't I?

Till Next time!

Keep The FLames Burning!

The Final Countdown Begins!

Due to unforseen events and circumstances, i think i would need to step up the pace starting November. Things will even get harder from this point forward, but i have no other options but to do so.

This is probably my Year's Final countdown so to speak and with the remaining days that are left available to me, i wonder if i will be able to break the deadline that i had set upon myself. Well anyways, things may look difficult for now but i guess this is something that must happen.

The end of the year is just barely 2 months away and that time is far too short for the things that i wanted to do. Moving along those lines, a few obstacles has presented along the way as well. Meh~ it seems that the last quarter of this year has given me nothing but aches and worries and i hope by the end of this year, all these worrying and aches will be forever forgotten.

And yes, this is just my usual rambling for the week that has passed. I'll post a review during the weekends and i hope that you guys will look forward to it.

Till then...

Keep the Flames Burning!!

1 Step Forward 2 steps back

I had completely gotten used to my sleep/wake routine and everything seems to be fine as of late. With that out of the picture, i just quietly sat back and thought about the things that i had done in the past. As you may already know, at the start of this year i shared with you some of the things that i wanted to do in the future.

The one thing that kept me motivated is the phrase "If it is worth having, it's not going to be easy". Yeah, all of us have things that we wanted to do. Some of us have it hard, and some find it easy. Although those that didn't have a hard time in getting what they want, feel sort of "anti-climactic".

It's not that hard to imagine and most people would say "Sheesh, it was easier than i thought". Oh yeah~ learning another language and doing the things that you wanted to do is not a walk in the park. In fact, if you are really interested in learning something, you need to have the attitude to make it work.

I'll be honest, sometimes my laziness gets in the way of things. The "I'll do it later", "I'll do it tomorrow" kind of thing. This is the one attitude that i would really really really really....(you get the picture right?) really...want to get rid off.

*Sighs*

Well, even so I'm fairly satisfied on what i had done so far. Another issue that i would like to share is reaching my goal, without stepping on other people. Everyone wants to live peacefully. Nobody wants to have enemies. But, life is a journey that is full of ups and downs. Danger and anxiety always lurks around the corner of our lives. Last week, i did something unthinkable.

I forgave someone (in my heart) whom i really hated for a very long time now. There were even times when i told myself that "Even if God forgives him, I won't forgive him". Meh~~ i guess i just want to move forward with my life without the ache that is constantly eating out my heart. I'll just put that episode behind and will not look back.

This year I swear to myself that i will accomplish what i had started. Hopefully, no more obstacles and heartaches will be strong enough to make me waver. A few years from now, i want to look back at all the posts that i made in this blog and put a smile in my face.

I'll be able to trace the hardships that i had been through and tell myself "You did great! I'm very proud of you!"




Well, future me...i hope you remember this post well! You were here once! and never forget everything that you have done to reach this point! Lastly, don't wipe that silly grin on your face.

Till next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!!

It's the NEET thing to DO =)

In the modern world (our modern world), there are people that have a hard time in finding a job after they finish their studies. In some countries, particularly Japan...these people are called NEET's (Not in Employment Education or Training).

They are branded as the so called, rejects of society and these people often lose sight of their future and just "goes wit the flow" of things. It's sad but, it doesn't just happen in Japan but all over the world.

Now, the review that i am going to share with you is a group of NEET's, that is doing something to make their city a better place to live in.

And of course, since this week's title is "It's a NEET thing to do" then, most of you has an idea on what anime title we will be featuring this week. You're right, it is non other than "Kamisama no Memochou", which also means God's Notebook.



Narumi Fujishima is a highschool student that doesn't want to stand out in class. The reason is because, he doesn't want to be associated with anyone. He thinks that knowing people would just get in the way, if their family decides to move away once again.

His so called "peaceful days" became extinct when a girl named Shinozaki, Ayaka decided to make him a gardening club member. Well Narumi's luck really ran out when she met the girl named "Alice".

Alice which is a self proclaimed NEET Detective that solves crimes from the comforts of her own room (completely packed with stuff toys and state of the art computer softwares/hardwares). Narumi easily became her Dokupe opener (it is a drink that Alice loves) and part time assistant, when things get out of hand. Together with a group of "Elite NEETS" like the Fourth (Yakuza head), The General (Weapon, Gears Specialist), The Gambler (Mellee combat specialist) and the Playboy (Women Specialist...duh).

The story has somewhat a serious~ funny~ and hmmm....whats the word..."unpredictable" atmosphere that makes you want to crave for more. Kamisama Memochou is something that is worthwhile to watch, when you are looking for something cute, something modern and something realistic all in one package.

And yeah~ if you're still worried about my "Not sleeping habits" then, thank you for your concern. I'm doing well despite that fact and I'm sure that i'll continue to be well.

The Rain is coming really hard this month and somehow, it feels like more will come before the Christmas season.

Don't forget to bring your umbrella if you think that it will rain and don't forget...

Keep the Flames Burning!

In Between Dream and Reality

Ok, i have finally found a solution to my problem. The solution that i did to solve my problem was to "just ignore the problem". What? I'm not making any sense? Ok...i'll break it down to you guys =)

My Sleep problem has given me a lot of hardships in this past month and i believe that some of you had witnessed (eerrr read) my whining here in my blog. Like i said, i tried almost everything to cure it but to no avail. Even my second reflexology session seemed to have no effect at all. So what i did was, i ignored the problem all together ^__^

I just lay down at night, close my eyes and don't bother whether i sleep or not. Is it effective? yeah it is very effective :3 i get out of bed in the morning not feeling refreshed or anything. I go around doing the things that i usually do and surprisingly, i think my body adapted to my new daily errr...nightly routine.

Health concerns aside, i don't think that there is anything that i can do at the moment. The reflexology session paid off big time and my breathing and seemingly "blocked blood vessels" has been officially opened. Even though i don't get any sleep, i don't have any difficulty in breathing (which is a good thing).

Now, I resumed my Japanese self study lessons and i am trying to stick to my schedule (which had been messed by 1 1/2 months). Still, i believe that i made good progress in the few days that passed. The only thing that i need to do right now is to widen my Japanese Vocabulary. Yes, i can now read katakana and hiragana properly....(No don't ask me about kanji. I plan to do it after i mastered sentence construction and proper speech in Japanese).

Well, I'm also happy that i was able to resume going back to my online job. I had been a lazy bum for 2 months now and I'm glad that my boss is very generous and forgiving (thx ate ^_~ ). This past week has been busy and i think that even though i still can't get my well deserved sleep, that won't stop me from moving forward.

I'm not saying that i am used to not sleeping now. I'm saying that, this is the most that i can do for the moment. I don't think my sleeping habits have left me all together. I know that I just need to slowly trigger it from time to time and pray that everything will work out in the end.

Well =) i hope you guys have a great weekend and lastly, i will resume my anime reviews next week. Sorry for boring you guys with my whining and such... (But, Hey this is my Blog right?!?!).

Till Next Time!!

Keep The Flames Burning!!

Things You Can't Live Without

After my last post here in my blog, i sought the aid of a reflexologist to help me with my problem. Acupressure proved to be very effective and i was surprised to find myself falling asleep before i knew it. It was a wonderful experience and I was able to sleep for 3 straight days afterwards.

The momentum was broken on the fourth night, when my neighbors became too rowdy and were making a lot of noise. I was very annoyed because they kept me awake all night. The night after that it happened all over again. My sleep problem came back and i was once again in a very miserable state.

Currently, i'm not really sure if I'm sleeping or not at all. I tend to just close my eyes every night and wait for morning comes. Now, like i said...I'm not really sure if i am able to sleep at all or not because i tend to know my surroundings as if i was just there with my eyes closed.

Now, I don't feel refreshed at all in the mornings, but i don't feel fatigued either. It was like, I am tricking my body that i am actually asleep (even if i were not). That way my body doesn't react too badly because sometimes, when i think too much about my health...it triggers something and that is what makes the ordeal a lot heavier.

Its like a psychological disease and with that kind of problem, you need a psychological cure to fight it. Well anyways, for me this is just a temporary reprieve and i do hope that i can still return my state to the time after my acupressure session. If this week doesn't yield results, then i guess its time to call him once again.

Seriously, there are things in life that you just can't live without like sleep =)

Till next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!