Tell Me Who Your Friends are...and I'll...What was that Again?

I find it funny, when my so called "friends" are feeling insecure because of the things that I am currently doing. I find it hard to imagine that those people whom I had been with for so long, would eventually stab me in the back. Frankly and in all honesty, i didn't see that one coming. It was a good lesson and now i know "who my real friends are" right now.

Well, since I am trying to pursue my happiness, a change is in order. I am looking into positive things and i am trying to change my attitude for the better. I want to throw away all the negativity aside and face the world with a smile on my face. Regardless of what happens in the future i will be strong. Not only for my family's sake, but for the sake of my dreams as well.

No one has the right to take my dreams away from me. If i have to "delete" them in my life, then so be it. I don't need them and i can live without them. Let them laugh now, Let them criticize and humiliate me for all its worth. I'm sure that after everything has been said and done, I will be there at the finish line...laughing my heart out and fulfilling my dreams...one step at a time.

Whatever happens, never let anyone pull you down.

Until then...

Keep the Flames Burning!

Lost Momentum

May had been a very good month for me. I was able to sleep at least 3-6 hours everyday and it made me feel better. Unfortunately, i thought that i was finally able to cure my insomnia and yet the momentum was broken...2 days ago.

Yes, i did not manage to get any sleep for 2 straight days once again (sighs). Every night has been a battle to get some sleep and i feel really miserable right now. Well, i guess perfecting my "auto sleep" technique should really be my priority in order to feel comfortable every single day. I guess I'm going to do the usual thing i do every night "Ignore the problem" and hope my subconscious mind will have mercy on me and knock my consciousness away for a few hours.

The Rainy season is also gearing up in full and we had encountered some heavy rains as of late. The rain also helps in keeping the temperature towards my liking and hopefully, i will be able to get a few hours of rest tonight (i really hope so). June should be a month of surprises and things will surely start to roll on this month.

Hope you guys are ready for June and until then...

Keep the Flames Burning!

Head...Hurting...Again ~_~

One of the things that i try to avoid at all cost (especially when i don't get any sleep) is travelling for more than an hour. Last night I was able to get home at around 1am in the morning. The journey back home was only for an hour but i felt miserable afterwards. I feel like puking, the ache in my head won't stop hurting and frankly, i wouldn't be surprised if my world started spinning at that point.

Thankfully it didn't, still...my head is killing me right now. I only got 2 hours of sleep last night and i feel like I'm going down with the cold. The thing is, my temperature is stable and the only thing that is hurting is my head. Sure, the pain reliever did its job and eased down the pain (for a few hours) and now it is back again.

*Sigh* I'll remember this lesson and try not to travel during the "whee hours of the night". It is not worth the effort and the backlash is seriously killing me. So far, all is well with my "part time job" and i am actually enjoying the company of my team-mates. I know that in good time, we will be able to accomplish the things that many thought was just a pipe dream. For now, I am building a castle in the sky....now i just need to make sure that the bricks that I'm using will stay afloat.

Hope you guys will have a great week ahead of you...

Till next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!

Rainy Month of May

I am truly grateful that the month of May brought the rain along with her. It always rains during the afternoon and it helps a lot, in keeping everyone's tempers on check.As for me, my target is to go to Japan by next year. I am now giving my current...hmm..."sideline" my 80% (at the moment) because there are still a lot of things that I need to do, before i give it my all.

I am now readying myself to accept criticisms and rejections, something that i hadn't thought of doing way back then. I know that in order to reach my "Selfish Dream" i need to put some effort into it. Aside from trying to learn Japanese, i stumbled upon a unique group of people. I believe that these people are going to play a major part in the things that I am going to do a few months from now. I feel blessed to be a part of their team and i know that i can rest assured that I am in very capable hands.

So before i close this short post of mine, i would like to tell everyone that sometimes, we need a little push on the back to move forward. It may take a little courage and swallowing a bit of your pride to ask someone "C'mon, give me a push here" to get things started.

May everyone enjoy this rainy month of May and may our blessings be as plentiful as the rain that is falling down from the sky each and every day.

Till next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!

Avengers Assemble!

Well, there are a lot of comments about the "Avengers" and I for one am very "Satisfied" with the movie. Last Saturday, i went to watch it with my friends and we really had a good time. The drama, the humor and the action was there. It was a sardine pack movie and i found myself laughing at some of the scenes along the way.

Frankly, i nearly choked on the fries that i was eating because I chewed it at the wrong moment. It was a dangerous yet fun experience for me. I do hope that the sequel for the movie will come in one or two years from now. I will definitely and without a doubt anticipate it.

This month is at its end and the thing that is very noticeable about this month of April is the heat. I dunno...maybe the heat was triggered by a "Solar flare" or just the after effects of global warming. Still, i did get some sleepless nights because i feel so "icky". It is so humid, i was sweating like hell and it was very very very (let me stress the VERY part) hot.

Hopefully the month of May will show some promise and sprinkle the days with a few rains to help fight off the heat. May is the month on which my Mom will celebrate her birthday. I plan to give her something special on that day, so i need to work my ass off for 3 whole weeks. For her sake, i will do that and if luck will smile on me then i will be able to get something great before this month is over.

Seriously, i need to stop my lazyness (habit) and keep my blood pumping so that my heart and body will get stronger. I will need a strong heart in order to realize my dream and May is the best month to start.

May all of you have a great week ahead of you and until next time...

Keep the Flames Burning!

One Small Step for me...One big Leap to Infinity

There had been a few occasions in my life, where i took a gamble and see whether i made the right choice or not. Some of them were successful, some didn't work out. Now, i am planning to gamble once more and hopefully...this one will help me pave the road to my future.

Well, this is something that i decided to do rather than wait for a miracle to fall down on top of my head. Waiting without doing anything will not accomplish anything. Taking risks might have its downsides, but if you are willing to take the chance then possibilities will open up for you. Frankly, I'm a little unsure on how i should start this little venture of mine. However, i do believe that this is something that i must do from the bottom of my heart. I know that I need to focus and not lose sight of my main goal.

For that to happen, I need go to a "pit stop" and replenish my resources. With a little luck and if Fate is really whispering in my ear, then that gap between my dreams and reality will certainly move a little bit closer. Sorry but no review for this week, Need to focus on things that are more important.

 Until then...

 Keep the Flames Burning!

Epicness at its Finest!

Well...hmm...where do i begin?

I'm sure that you've read that i had two things that i want to accomplish during the holy week.

1. Go to the Beach
2. Do a little pilgrimage

Neither of them were accomplished. The reason was simple, I got diarrhea at the start of the holy week and it just so freaking....sucks :(

Yeah, it was one of those uncomfortable moments in my life, where my stomach and intestines were cleaned very thoroughly. I'm really disappointed because i wasn't able to do at least one of those two things and i guess, it was just wasn't my week. Maybe it was not meant to be, Maybe it is a blessing in disguise and Maybe...(so many maybe's?) the time was not right.

Anyway, when Easter Sunday arrived, my upset stomach settled down and everything went back to normal. Well, that is all for this week and i hope that you guys had far greater fun than i did.

I will post a review on my next post and until then...

Keep the Flames Burning!